so i woke up this am and realized that I'm a fat a$$ yes.. my friends i am.. don't try to sugar coat it.. I've let myself get out of what i was doing so well and i have let the junk food junkies come in and take over.. i shall overcome though.. no fear.. PANSY is here..
i hate the constant fight for feeling like I'm okay in my skin.. i hate the constant fight that age is taking over and I'm gonna be a fat ugly wrinkled old woman one day.. i do not wanna be that.. i wanna be young forever.. ugh!!!
so .. i have succumb to the fact that I MUST get myself back on the track and get myself back on square one.. i know i have to start back at the beginning but now is the best time to do it.. get myself back on the way of the right.. before Christmas and the holidays and things getting more hectic.. i must also get back to the gym.. so i have informed Greg that tomorrow i shall be visiting the wonderful Planet Fitness (as well as cancelling my kids memberships b/c they don't go.. and i can save 20 freaking dollars a month!).. so i guess it will be like starting over.. but i know it will be worth it..
i shall also be making out my grocery list to get those things i need when I'm low carbing.. those snacks that keep me on the up and up.. i shall still probably do some whole grain pastas.. but just not as much.. so looks Ike i should have bought some of those eggs last week when everyone else was purchasing them.. but oh well.. i do have turkey bacon i got for free.. lmao!!!
so watch out.. I'm sure to be crabby... sore and not a real nice person for about a week.. but i gotta do what i gotta do.. and it starts today..
NO Doritos at work.. NO twix at work.. NO cookies at work...i can buy broccoli salad instead of potato salad.. i can get a slim jim instead of a twix.. i can buy some pork rinds instead of Doritos.. i can get me some pepperoni sticks that are on my vic.. pair it with a nice cheese string and boy oh boy.. i gots a snack! :) .. so seems i need to buy some meat.. b/c yes i shall be eating meat.. and i have tons of veggies in the freezer from all those meal deals.. and maybe ill check into this weeks meal deal since its chicken..
so pray for me.. and support me.. and help me.. b/c i feel like POOP and i know its b/c I'm eating like POOP.. my sugars are out of control and well i need to set a better example!
i know this blog sucked.. but oh well.. i guess that's why i have it to vent right?
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