so its thursday..

and today im a stressed out mess.. i hate feeling like things are out of my control!!! i am trying to get insurance on the kids they are sayin theres an open case in nash county..but theres NOT .. b/c we did not choose to pay the premiums.. i have to prove i have physical custody.. i havent gotten the papers in the mail.. mandy needs another book for school .. i still have school supplies to buy.. they need shoes.. gotta try and get those tonight.. i am about to freaking scream my head off b/c im stressed out to NO end and i just need a vacation..

i still need to take mandy to the school to sign papers.. havent heard a thing from haley's school yet dont know who her teacher is.. still need to apply for reassignment.. im absolutely STRESSED!!

i need calgon to do MORE than take me away.. i would love a nice long bubble bath with a nice cold beer.. and time alone with NO interuptions.. none.. not even from the dang cat!

i know next weekend the kids are going to their meme's and they are so excited to be going and greg and i will have time together.. i know he will be working some but it will benice to just be able to do some bonding.. last night we just sat and talked for the longest time it was nice to talk about the future and what are plans are and what he sees for our family..it made me feel good..

so i need a dressser for the girls room and i think about that.. i need to hit some yard sales big TIME! but dang i never get out of the bed early enough nor do i get a paper to find out where they are! LMAO!

i am going tonight to get shoes for the kids for school haley needs tennis shoes and the other ones need sperrys for school.. so we are off to the mall tonight.. im gonna pick up pizza for them afterwards..and we will head home.. tomorrow is their BIG chore day at home.. so i know they will hate it.. i told them though that if they are NOT done this week.. ALL the chores.. they will be grounded all weekend.. i am still gonna try to talk greg into lettin us go to the movies.. maybe as a family outing.. we will see .. he may end up working all weekend so i dont know..

and of course.. no word from bill on when and if he will see the kids .. and they are really affected by this.. they want to see their dad and be a part of his life so bad.. i realize that he is having a rough patch right now but at the same time.. they need him.. even if only to go sit at the park and talk..but he just doesnt see it..

it would be nice if greg was off sunday we got the boat fixed and we could go out on it..

and on the weight front.. ive lost 3 lbs.. i guess its a start.. i do however go to talk to the dr on the 12th.. im gonna ask once again about possible thyroid issues as i have SOO many of the symptoms and yet NO one will do the FULL test for me! maybe he will.. im also gonna talk to him about diet and nutrition and how its SOOO hard for me to lose now.. and how i try and try but dont have any success.. its quite depressing.. however maybe he will help me to figure out whats going on.. i have my water in hand.. had my oatmeal for breakie and im planning out what im doing for lunch.. i probably will be runnin around to try and find shoes for haley!

so thats it for today.. yes im just a little stressed out booger but im making it.. ill be ok..